I always wanna say something about happiness.But it is a too large and serious topic for me to argue and analyze.The only thing I know is that life actually is full of happiness,it depends on whether you could discover and enjoy it.For me there are some really "small" pieces of happiness I've experienced.
When I was a 7-year old girl,I was demanded to wear white shirt and blue trousers on 1st June,to join the Young Pioneers.At that time my parents and I lived in a small town in Sichuan province and it's not easy to get a "white" shirt.I worried about it for a couple of weeks.When at last my mother managed to make one by herself for me just before the ceremony,I know for the first time in my life,what happiness means.
For little kid many things at present pleased her.So it seems so easy to laugh,to enjoy the innocent happiness.Winning a game,getting high scores,being praised by teachers,raising a little rabbit,each time going out for travel,each time being allowed to buy icecreams,...may be worth the most sweetest smile and cheer.
Things changed when we grow up.The more we see,the more we know,the more we worry about the more nervious we become.We see human being fighting against themselves. Murder,violence,conflict...happen every day all over the world and probably never end.Thus people become very tired of everyday's struggle,the happiness disappears soon.
But if you look into the normal people's lives,you will find,these people,majority of the population of the world,may be not rich,may be not powerful,may not have their own businesses,their own houses,even not a stable good job,they do live lives.They do enjoy their every day and prepare for the coming days with hope.I think they may be the happiest people in the world.Sometimes I can see a father take his son to school by bicycle.They don't have a car,they may be worry about sunshine,the wind,the rain,the crowded street and the time.But only by this way can they see trees change from green to yellow,can the son get a chance to know other people and to learn the traffic rules.They can have a funny conversation and the son could learn a lot from his father trough it.I think they are happy at that time.
That's come back to the point what happiness is in fact.I think it's not the result but the process is more important.Happiness could not be simply judged by money something.Also it's hard to say what is success.If you were born rich,you will have no idea about poor.If you have never lost,you will not be delighted by the seccess either.For me happiness may be those wonderful feelings last just one moment.If you can feel it now and again, here and there,your life will be full of happiness.
Sometimes when I pass by the Chaoyangmen subway entrance,I see several young guys sitting on the ground playing guitar and singing popular songs.Few people throw coins,nobody stop.This doesn't matter at all.They just sing for themselves and enjoy it.That time I may smile,I just share their music and sing together with them.Even when I walk away for a long time,the melodies continue in my mind.Aren't they happy then?I feel happy too.
I have seen a movie called "The 8th Day".There is one line in it,"If you feel the tree,you will become the tree...".How wonderful if I could really be a tree!I will be more colser to the nature.I will feel the pain being cut down and leaving the land.I will feel the pleasure srounded by singing birds. So sometimes I really envy the actors and the actresses.They have opportunities to experience different lives.Each kind of life will full of it's own happiness and pain.So they will be very rich of it. I'd like to say,"If you feel the happiness,you will be happy".:-)
