Friendship means to me
Sincere friendship is an important part of my life. I can't imagine what my life will be like without it.
Ever since I was very young, I started to understand friendship and benefited from it and enjoyed it. Yes, just as a friend once put it on this forum, 'No friend, no history', friendship did make and is still making part of my history, if not all. It is friendship that let me learn about people around me, learn about the outer world, and myself as well. It is my friends who inspirit me to keep pursuing better life. It is the contact with my friends enlightens my life whenever I feel blue. Friendship makes my life easier and brighter. Friends help me build my self-confidence and self-respect.
I don't have many friends, but I do have a few close ones at every stage of my life up till now.
I can never forget my first close friend when I was a very little boy. He was my neighbor. We both have several brothers and sisters, but we nearly spent all our time playing together and share everything we had. I can still remember a incident happened between us.
It happened when I was about 6 or 7. When we were swimming in the river near our town without being known by our parents as usual, he was slipped into deep water and was about to drown. I was so scared that I run to the house nearby without any clothe on and screamed out for help. When he was saved from water, he nearly lost his breath and consciousness. Fortunately he was regain his sense with the help of local doctors not before very long. We both cried for a long time when he recovered and spent nearly a whole week without a moment apart. I still don't know if it was fear of death or lose of friend or both touched me so much.
I had never been a very good student ever since my school though I believe I had been a good child. Your know I never felt much pressure from parents on my study and didn't study very hard. So I failed my College Entrance Examination for the first time. To my surprise, I received no blame or criticism from my parents. That made me felt extremely guilty for the care from them. At the very moment, I received much encouragement from my friends and it did inspirit me a great deal. And I still kept a notebook from a best friend of mine with the words on the cover page said, 'Believe in yourself just as I believe in you---you can just if you want!' Maybe he will never realize how important a role his words played in my life, but they deeply impressed in my mind and helped me a lot. By the way, I am happy to tell you that we both working in the same city now, which is far from our hometown. Should I say that it's destiny or just coincidence?
Of course, I did have a few best friends during my undergraduate and postgraduate. And the friendship helped me have had a very good time in college. I don't want to say too much about that just because college life should impress deeply in the mind of every one of us.
Unfortunately, I have to admit that I failed to build friendship with my colleagues as close as I did with my classmate during my university. I am not sure if it is because that I haven't had many chances to make new friends due to my work environment or not. Maybe I cared a bit too much about living and career development, or maybe for some other reasons, life seems not as happy as it once was. I started to lose my self-confidence and my enthusiasm of live started to wane. I had been struggling out for quite a long time, but I lost my irections. I just felt tired out without knowing any reason sometimes. I had kept asking myself how to shoulder the responsibility for my family if I failed to shoulder the responsibility for myself?
Maybe God doesn't mean to ruin me. An important meeting enlighten me recently. I suddenly realized that what a terrible situation I had been living in for so many years! My new friend's attitude to life really gave a great shock. It just like a mirror that reflect my deep soul in front of me clearly. I have never been so touched for many years. I know I can never express my appreciation too much. But I do believe it will bring a big change in my future life.
I just want to say that it is you all make my history, my dear friends!
Jeff
