I had made up my mind not to have a baby in my lifetime before I had my daughter. But my husband had a different opinion about this issue. For trying to persuade him to accept my viewpoint, I even managed to write an article with a title like “my dear baby, the reasons why your mom do not want you come to this world”. I had planed to write out at least one hundred reasons, I intend to begin my document like this: my dear baby, I want to tell you what this world is like, I believe you will agree with me. The environment, which we have been making our living on, is getting more and more deteriorated. Burdened with over population, shortage of fundamental supply such as drinking water, people on the earth will hard to feed themselves in the future. A great deal effort and struggle you have to make to ensure you facing bravely with variety difficulties and failures before you …
Someone, including my husband, must have thought that I just excused myself from my duties or escaped from the burden of time and money to bring up a child. In some way, it is probably right, but the fact is that I am not a strong-minded person. Facing with the problems in social life, I pondered and felt pain, for I always take a pessimistic view to this world. To human nature, I have less trust too. However, my husband is just the reverse, full of love and passion even curiosity with everything, he just likes a kid himself that will never grow up.
Whether having a baby became a vexed question during many years of our married life. At last we had our daughter two years ago. After my baby was born, my husband gladly said to me he wanted to write one hundred changes our baby had brought. Yes, I’d like to do the same thing too. Especially, she really changed me a lot. The great change for me is I almost doubt why I had such a strong feeling to oppose the birth of such a beautiful little baby in past years. .
To observe my little daughter growing up day after day, to play with her, to listen to her, to talk with her, all of this is full of happiness and pleasure. Of course, I have to give so much to breed her. But I always think I have got much more from her than I have given to her. I have a fresh comprehension with the meaning of a life. I have acquired a more serenity spirit. I have even learned from my little baby a lot.
I will never forget some special occasions during my baby’s growth. Her first cry, her first laughter, her first turning over by herself, her first standing up and her first speaking out a meaning word and etc. all impressed me, moved me and made me feel the special happiness as a mother. Imagining the exciting both my dear baby and me had felt when I saw my little daughter standing up by herself! I doubt I have the ability to describe that special time vividly.
The tenth night after her seven-month old, while my baby was sitting in her little bed with railing around it, I accompanied and talked with her as usual. I always talked with her though she was too young to speak at that time. I believe she could understand me, and I understood her by reading her expression in her eyes and on her face. Grabbing the rail of her bed with her hands, she struggled and stood straight, even tried to stand up, then she fell on her bed. “My dear, don’t you know you are too young to stand up, today, it is the tenth day past your seven-month in this world, take it easy, someday in the near future you will stand up. ”I said to her. But she did not stop her attempt. She crawled over and stretched her hands to grasp the rail, once again, she made all her efforts to try to stand up, but fell off another time. “Baby, believe mom. It is too early for you to stand up. Do not hurt yourself. Ok?” I said gently. My principle is to take care of her from hurt, to help her if needed but will not restrict her, so I just advise, not take any action to stop her. She tried again and again. Suddenly, with swaying legs, she stood up with her hands clutching the bed rail. I almost could not believe my seeing. It is true. She stood up herself! Standing there, beamed with smiles on her face and in her shining eyes, I knew at that time she herself must have felt the happiness as a victor. Yes, she succeeded though she just stood there for a short while the first time. Since then on, it was getting easier for her to stand up by herself with a support from bedrail. I was so proud for her. I hoped that spirit not fearing to try and to fell off and the success smile would accompany all her life.
In past days, when something made me feel depressed occasionally, I used to give up and would recovered from the somber mood quite slowly. But now, when I faced some real problem in my life, I will think, I cannot give up, as I am a mom, I must make a good example for my child to face variety matters before me and make a living in a positive manner. My responsibility doesn’t allow me to give up. I know this clearly, just for her, my baby daughter. I change myself and I appreciate this change.
Since my baby born, I always have a desire to write something, maybe I should write an article with this topic: My dear baby, the one thousand reasons you are making your mom feel happy.
Lately, I fell off on the floor and hurt myself on hand and wrist. I tried to cool down the swollen wrist using some small pieces of ice. My daughter run towards me: “ Mom, let me hold the ice for you” she said. “ No! My dear, the ice is too freezing for you. Mom will be well. Don’t worry.” I answered. “Let me hold it, mom” she repeated her request, and added “Mom, would you like to eat some sweet cookies?” cookie is her favorite snack. Moved by her good comfort and help, tears blurred my eyes. She was not two- year-old then and she could not express completely. But I had felt her love and care for me. Am I a happiest mother with such a lovely baby?
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