What will let you give up your life?
I have been trying to forget this question these days. But Neil's article reminds me that I must face this question. Though it seems irrelevant with Neil's topic, it is also relating to life.
I got to know by chance that a friend of mine suicided with a rope on the first day of this Monkey year a couple of days ago. She is outstanding insurance expert whom I ever met. She is only in 30s. She leaves a teenage daughter and old parents to go to another world. She is so close to me. It is the first time for me to experience so close friend leaving with such cruel way. I couldn't believe it. Why? What can let her end her life in this way? I couldn't do anything while I got this news. I was pondering this question constantly without answer. I can't understand. I feel sorry and doleful with her. Meanwhile, I can't help blaming her. Her husband laid off. Her daughter not only needs her to breed, but also her guidance. I can't imagine how daughter grows up without mother.I don't have answer to this serious question. I do believe that she has her own reason. Because she is not that kind of irrational person. But who can tell me what will let a person give up his/her life? I feel cofused.At least, for my situation, I have mother, daughter and husband, they need me. I can't leave them alone. Forgive me to leave such a sorrow question just after so happy holiday.
Dolefully, Dove
