Dear Ming,
You wrote:
"i'd like to live wonderful life,i hope happy stories happen to me everyday,but that's impossible,i have to work for my living day by day,i'm tired of it,but i have no choice,for i have to pay for eating ,clothing,housing rent,though it's bad,but i have to go on,i cann't expect to become a millionnaire overnight, although i always dream it will happen someday,and my heart will go on."
I've known some millionaires, and I assure you that they don't have especially happy lives, either. What you need is enough. Not a large fortune. Of course, if a large fortune somehow comes to you then you will have to bear it, I suppose. Apparently it is very tiring to manage a large fortune. There are many other reasons that a large fortune isn't something to wish for.
One multi millionaire I know is not content with quite a few inherited millions. He aspires to be a prince. So he married a princess, just for the title. Of course there was a divorce, but he still has the title. Whoopee! His present actions will probably lose his fortune for him and leave him a bad old age.
Another one lives a pinched life. That's because he worked so hard to get it, and he got it through acquisitions of land and property. He can't let any of it go. Even though some of the things he owns have become "white elephants". He doesn't enjoy his millions, he worries about how to pay the taxes and so on, without selling anything. It is often the case that self-made millionaires become miserly and can't let anything go to have any pleasure from their money. They have worked so hard for it, and eaked and scraped to get where they are and that life has changed them into pennypinchers. I have observed that the well-to-do are often the stingiest people.
Then there was the one I saw pull money from his pocket, wave it and say "What good is this?" Basically he means that he can't buy health, or love, or inner peace with money. There is the one whose beloved wife died of cancer anyway. There is the one who wanted to be an English Lord. I don't know him, but I do know that he is in the greatest trouble because of his business dealings, and shunned by all his fellows just now. The rich can't be sure of who is really a friend, or really loves them.
You want and need a better job or a promotion. Something you can enjoy doing to some extent, that has enough challenge to keep you interested, and that will give you enough to live on, and a little extra. I hope you can find your way to that. Of course I would ask God, or the Highest Power, to help me to find my best way in life and to make good things possible. And then I would keep working away, and keep watch for any opportunity that might come my way.
In the meantime, don't waste your time wishing to be a millionaire. Take every innocent pleasure that your world offers, and cherish everything that is lovely. Remember that every person you meet every day, has a hidden inner life. There are living souls moving around you all the time. They, like you, are full of longings and stories. Respect them for that.
I hope your tight conditions will soon change. Sir 'Abdu'l Baha Abbas, a very wise man said that "Life is a burden that must be carried on" by every one of us, millionaire or poor man. Choose what you really want in life. I imagine that aside from needing more money, and a more interesting job, you want friends and a loving, good family. You want respect. You want to feel that your life matters and that you have left something a little better, behind, when you go on to the the life to come, probably some far away day.
We must make the best of it while we are here, and when we do, we are well paid back with inner contentment, a happier heart, breadth of spirit, friends and family, self respect and the respect of those who count to us.
Think about what you *really* want, and set out to build it, bit by bit. Health? Education? Clean air and water? Fewer crowds? You can work toward all of them, little by little. It might take you years, but step by step you will reap the benefits as you go along. It doesn't take becoming a very wealthy person to achieve those things. If you write them down you can think how to take your first steps towards your true goals. Enough money, and a little more?One hour or one day for yourself and part of it with family? You would be surprised what you can achieve over some years, if you try, little by little, and steadily.
I hope this will give you a fresh perspective, renewed hope and open a life ofinteresting possibilities. Life doesn't need to be boring. d
Warmly, Mary
