trapped in lovelorn affairs

I don't know when, I don't know why, my puppy love begins silently.(now i find that it is just an one-side missing)She is not very beautiful,but active; she is not attractive, but I'm deeply bedazzled by her; she is talktive, and I like to listen to her experience about everything;(except the things about her formal bf)she loves to laugh, and I like to watch her smiling face.....For a long period, I found that I'd lost my heart to her.I'm good at playing table tennis, and she also likes to play it. I know it is god who gives me a chance to get close to her, which makes me so happy. Every saturday morning, we have a date at the playground to play table tennis. I taught her table tennis, though boring, I just like the feeling of accompanying her! But after a long run, I find that she never give me any love, instead, she wants to isolate me by accentuating the relationship. I have no courage to show my true love, because I'm afraid of the aftermath--if I say love to her, what if she disagreeed me, how ambrassed when I face her later on! So I always keep silent and just perform the love by other way. The friends of mine all know that I must have fallen in love with her, but they never know my bitterness---the so-called "fall in love" is a something called "one-side love". I don't know what I can do next---step on pursuing or quit? I love her from the bottom of my heart, but I never know what is her feeling. I can see that she is happy when playing with me, but is it a fake sign or is it a symbol of friend-ship or partnership or even a original relation of classmates? So many things puzzled me. I couldn't make a proper decision.If I quit pursuing, I may lose my love without any try, but maybe a long-term pain of lovelorn affains is avoided. How can I do? Tomorrow is saturday again, I'm eager to see her smiling face, but frequently I think of the scenery when I lost her, I was forced to smile when I happen to meet her in the street sometime...... Now I could't get rid of the dark cloud.................How can I do? Help me for the sake of my true heart!!! <to be continued>

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