Best Cure for Fear
People who are considerate are likely to run into the trouble of being haunted by fears. They may have brought too many factors into account and lead themselves into this awkward trap named fear. The reasons vary, from being afraid tto hurt someone to running the risk of ruining other's plans. There are many of the
fears, you name it.
An instance in point was mine own from last week.
I have two supervisors, one for pediatrics, the other for acupuncture. So when it comes to thesis, both of them have plans for me to carry out. The acupuncture one even wanted to send me to a far-away city to help him to carry out some of his experiment when I was faced with this urgent need to focus on my thesis-composing.
My first tutor has already talked with me and pointed out a direction whicch
,woth of us agreed should be a meaningful one. When I was half way, however, my
second tutor called to say that he needed me to help to accomplish his experiment.
I was haunted. Direction A is what I want and what I have already prepared, while direction B kind of inforced upon me. But the latter is also from my tutor,
who has inclosed us into nearly every family feast of his, who treats us really
well, who introduced us to various related lectures, and who listens and support our personal development. What's more, if I turned his request down, would that do harm to our connnection? Will he be as kind as before? And, with the posotion of my Pediatrian supervisor higher than his, will he have the resentment?
I did not know what to choose, let along how to tell him in a proper way.
I failed to eat or sleep as well as before, and could not help calling one of
my school sisters for help.
She inspired me with her keen insight by leading me to thinnk what is the most important one to me, and my future career. Knowing that I am not going to make
a living by acupuncture, and my genuine interest lies in kids, she told me this
was exactly what I should choose. Unevitably it will not be a perfect one in everyone's eyes, but this is already the best I could manage.
After making this decision, I still spent another three days wondering and fearing in what way should I choose to tell my acupuncture tutor. I had my little
heart hung on a thread. I has butterflies in my stomach. My expression was not as lustrous as before, while the hour of sleep simply slided.
I finally collected myself and dialed his number. It took twice the time to go to his clinic than usual.
I had been thinking time and time again over this: How should I talk with hime and tell him my chioce of giving up his offer? How could I deny helping him while this is against my helping nature?(I simply will not be able to afford the time)
I did not know how I began this talk in between. My face must look pale, and
my voice, which is quite smooth and nice, being a trembling one.
The result? Can you ever image? It took me less than five minutes to get this across to him! And what's more, he told me that he understand me perfectly and
if this is what is helpful to me, he will reach out to be of help as a teacher!
I was greatly relieved at this outcome.
Looking back to my former years, on which path numerous similar examples could be picked up easily, I signed for my being too considerate and thus timid. But
also with a light heart, that I have got the spirit of this lesson, that I will
never, commit this silly deed of worrying to hell before acting.
The truth is, acting cures fear.:) Do you ever agree?
