Streams of Life (9)
We have been fighting with each other a lot lately. The very last time happened
at midnight. It should have been avoidable if both of us were not that stressed
out. During the daytime we went out hunting for a desirable apartment, suitable
for living and working. But the problem was that everyone knew that this area was one of the golden ones that could possibly find in Shanghai: the availability
of subway and light railway, the potentiality of more convenience in the near future, and etc, etc. Adding all this up together, you can think how difficult it
is to find one that can both cater to our needs and have a good value of money.
So after one-day futile hunting, we came back home, dead exhausted and frustrated. After having a soothing shower, we decided to relax a bit: watch the last episode of The Apprentice. Everything was great, the episode ended up well, we discussed about what was in the program, just like what we did before. Then we began
to fight. I said something and got misunderstood. He thought I wanted to poke at the conflict we had the day before, but the truth was that I didn’t think even a whit of it. So I demanded an apology, but he didn’t want to.
Of course we apologized to each other the next day. I told him all I wanted to know was his opinion of being realistic and unrealistic. After all, until then we
hadn’t really talked with each other for quite a while. I told him I missed those nights we spent together: we shared our thoughts over different issues, and
got reinforced that why we were together. Birds of the same feather flock together, nothing could be truer than this.
Yesterday we went to the newly rented house to change the lock. I was dead tired
, and so was he. We thought changing the lock wouldn’t take long. But due to lack of right tools, it took us about one hour more than it should be to finish the task. Then we started fighting again. But I didn’t do anything wrong in the first place. On the way back, I didn’t even bother to talk to him, I even thought if all of my efforts during the past few days were worth it. In a way, I betrayed my family so as to stay with him, but would it be worthwhile if he always did things his way? After all, I am not, and will never be a follower or scapegoat
.
So I went to bed early after finishing some reading. He just finished talking to
his parents on Skype when I finished my shower and got ready to sleep. Then he
apologized. He said he was sorry and he was stupid, and we shouldn’t have such
kind of fighting again, because it was totally pointless and random. To this, I
agreed. And honestly, I was even moved, given I had known him quite well, and knew what it meant if he did or said something. He must have thought of it a lot on our way back and while I was in the shower. Long before I already realized that fighting was bad, it wouldn’t help a bit in terms of problem solving or relationship improving. So really now I am glad that he noticed it himself as well.
Starting a business is difficult, because you have to take risks, and have to endure all the pressure coming around you and within yourself. I said to my friend that, really, if what we did and we are doing will eventually pay off in one day, we well deserve it. And I think it accords with all the people who had experienced the same as we are at the moment. As you sow, so will you reap, basically
that’s all what is about.
