Not knowing how many times it is,I stare at the screen,smiling.I get into my eyes,seeing the sunshine plating my eyelash withgold.The breeze passes through the windows,kissing my cheeks.After typing 'bye' to him,I get offline,turn off the computer and go out.I walk on the fallen leaves,appreciating the sound of creak.I take a deep breath,sniffing a kind of delicate fragrance.Autumnit is now!
More than one year passed since we know each other.I found himonline just because I wanted to look for someone who lives in'gone with the wind''s hometown.I wanted to practise and improvemy english.That was all.Thus I found many people online.ThenI chose one name randomly,haven't realizing what a simple clickwould bring me.
We were just pen pals at first.We communicated with each otherthrough E-mails.Since he's american and I'm chinese,we had manytopics to talk about,such as different cultures,different life stylesand all.We shared poems.I looked for English version of ancient Chinese poems and sent them to him.He sent me poems that written by him in return.He helped me with my english,very patiently.I told him the tales about Chang'e and the moon and so on,like a not bad storyteller.Mooncakes,Zong zi...Those are what he wants to try.Sailing,motorcycle racing...Those are what I want to see.
Since our friendship grew day by day,only E-mails seemed not enough.We started to chat online this spring. The first time we chatted wasan amazing experience.We didn't fix the time,but we met.We were 12hours apart,but we talked in real time.I clearly remember the first'hi' he typed,which seemed full of delight.From then on internet'sbeen my other world.
Life can be like this.Each morning I wake up with smile,feeling birds are singing outside,though there's no bird at all.Yes,the birdis in my heart.It sings happily all day.I am the one who doesn'tbelieve online love.But,how fantastic the feelings it gives me!I don't remember when I began to like him.But for our E-mails,for our chat,for our words,I know it.And I know we have same feelings.''How I find you?"Once I asked him.''We are point from the samestar.That's how we connected.''He answered.
Distance is a big problem,though.I must confess that internet gives me illusions more or less.I'm afraid if I would addicted tointernet.I'm afraid all are dreams and they will disappear whenI open my eyes one day.I once planned on escaping from internet.I turned to him at last for all that he gives me,the warmth,the encouragements...He told me he is not an illusion.He is there.He will do whatever to help me.How can i leave him,even if the easiest thing online is disappearance?Internet is the place where my dreams begin.It's so cruel to kill the growing affection.I will,follow my dreams.
I study hard every day now.I'd like to imitate the bird which is called ''Jing Wei''.Studing hard is to pick up stones and throw them into the Pacific Ocean.I believe,one day,we'll meet in person and share in the moonlight together.
I told him about this.He said throwing stones should be the jobof us two.I smiled to the screen,as if i was smiling at him... ...
PS:Most people say that online lovers usually have no happy ending.I don't deny it.But,we live for what?For hope!Hoping I can meet him in reality,I work hard.My future and he are in the same direction.I'm brave enough to accept what future will bring us,no matter what.I know I will not feel regretful if I do.For the star of us,i will do.
Plus,I'm new here.Glad to meet you all here!!!:-)*999999
