Brother I wanna tell you. We are caring and worried about you all the time. Ever since you were such an excellent boy, how come you have pitted yourself in gambling so much. Brother, I don’t wanna blame you though you have become stranger and stranger to us since you began to do with gambling, I just wanna tell you how our whole family are worried about you every moment. Brother, do you remember when you first joined gambling with others, what did Father do with you? I heard from our second elder sister that Father have ever chased you to the riverside just wanna have you back and tried to persuade you in ending the bad deeds, though he’s very angry, he didn’t punish you very seriously, he just felt lost and hoped you could get rid of your wrong deeds soon. When you were 19 years old, the lady who’s now my sister-in-law were introduced to you, Father thought you would be a new guy since there was a special one who would be an important part of your life. At first, you did do well, but little by little, you began to be under the spell of gambling again. Till you were married, Father just kept the hope that you would be changed utterly, but seemingly you are trapped in it more and more deeply. Brother, though we have been brother and sister beyond 20 years, but I feel sorry that even we could total all the words spoken between us, it will never be more than the words spoken between your son, my nephew and me, though he’s been born only 7 years, what a thing! I remember the longest talk we have made is once a time you just lost in your gambling, and needed money for it urgently, you wanna borrow some from our first elder sister. But you have had a hot quarrel with her not long before , which made you feel sorry and didn’t dare to ask her for money by yourself, thus you wanna ask me to help you ask her. I still remember the words talked between us, but how about you? Well, I have told you now that your baby would grow up day by day, you must send him to school later on, so you should have no heart to see that he’s joked by others due to he has a father who’s a gambler. I see what I have said maybe have been in your mind all the time, but you just have no way to control yourself now that you have been in such a journey so long. But you must change yourself, you are my brother all the time, and you will be my brother in the future too, you must be responsible for your family, you must feel for our parents, who’ve been so old after so many years hard working, you must think about our feeling every time when we get to know that you are fined due to you are found in gambling. Brother, I really don’t wanna blame you, I just hope you could lead a happy and normal life like many others. Only if you’d like to have a normal life like many others, you must have lived in a better house like others whose ages are similar to you, but now, but what on earth happened? Brother, I think you see it clearly, maybe sometimes you will feel regretful, but how long the regret will last in your mind? If you would like to think it double times before you wanna take your chance in gambling, it’s sure that you will get rid of it eventually, do you agree? Brother, maybe you have thought we don’t care you any more since you have been deep in the pit of gambling, you are wrong, well, things more than I can say. But do you know every time when you are in trouble, how the night Father and Mother have spent? I may tell you, full of sleeplessness and sighs. I see they have really spoken some biting words to you sometimes, but they said it just for your good, couldn’t you feel their real feeling? I deem you can, but you ignored it due to you were under the charm of gambling! Last year, one time I went to see our parents, I found that Father was very depressed, I was pretty confused, but I didn’t dare to ask why. Before I left them, I tried to ask Mother, but Father stopped her with his expression. I saw there must be something sad he didn’t wanna mention that moment, while now that Father was reluctant to show himself, I had to leave them with my doubts. Days later Mother told me the truth, it’s that you have come to them for the money, My God! Brother, you know clearly that how much our parents could make even they do with all efforts, but you even have had heart to borrow money from them, though you have promised to pay back at the end of the very year. Brother, as I have told you before, I would like to give out everything if you could take yourself away from gambling. But when will you really come back to be a good guy as you have been before? I am just dreaming of such a moment with my whole heart.Brother, if forget about the gambling, you are not a bad guy in our eyes, but how come you take in gambling so much?Brother, Do you remember when you failed to step into the gate of middle school due to our family tight in money ? Do you remember the day you were only 13 years old or so when you went to help our parents share the burden of our family without any pause? Do you know what Mother felt in her mind when she screamed to sell Tofu among the towers of the urban, but just caught sight of those happy and cute kids whose ages similar to you were shouldering there school bags ? I have ever admired you so much, you have been so naughty, and Mother never could catch you when you have done something wrong and Mother tried to punish you, you always could manage your escape so easily .Brother, do you remember one dark night when you were trying to escape mother’s chasing, and run out of back door, but just being scared heavily by a cattle’s sudden howl which in fact was provoked by your sudden appearance in the dark, this case till now still a joke among our family members. Hehe. Ever since you were a pride of mine though, I never told you about it, personally speaking, I did envy our younger sister who’s only two years younger than I could have been going right with you most time, and sometimes you would like to take her here and there with your back, but me rarely be together with you, in my memory you never treated me like you have done to younger sister, even a single time when we were young, though my weight is similar to her. Brother, you could swim so wonderfully and freely since you were very young, but I just had chances to play water in the pretty shallow part, how I hoped you would like to teach me how to swim those days, but I never dared to breath out. I recall once a time, you were playing with your peers in the water, unfortunately, your foot touched one of your peers ‘s by accident, which made his nose bleeding. As a result, his mother come to us, and roared like a lion, which scared us a lot, and your peer together his family broke up with us, alright, now things over, his family and ours begin to speak again. Brother, how I hope you could be good guy again. Just remember your sister will keep her fingers crossed for you all the time. Take care.
Never seek to tell thy loveLove never that told could be
Riichen
