Do Not Want You To Know
That morning, seating in front of my computer,I was busy doing something, while listened to some melodious songs out form the sound box at the corner simultaneously.All the employees of my firm had the privilege to enjoy public music when they’er in working.This’s a fabulous forte of my firm.
Just as I was almost involved myself in the hardy assignment,suddenly,a girl’s dulcet singing andante pervaded all the spaces of the office:"Do not want you to know..." I was stunned by that familiar lyrics immediately,as if my heart was bombarded by countless megaliths.
忽然不想让你知道 在我心中 你多重要 Do not want you to know, no one can replace your position in my mind.
既然你要自由 你就得到 让你永远都记得我好 You can step into any destination as you like,but don’t forget to tie my heartfelt blessing with you as your tail.
忽然不想让你知道 你的爱我已经戒不掉 Do not want you to know, I can’t remove our love-seal away which have been strongly imprinted on my heart.
就让思念淹没我不想逃 反正你将永远不知道 Just let my nostalgia of you overwhelming me from top to toe, and you will never know in any case.
今夜星光多美好 适合用寂寞去凭吊 Tonight the starlight is so gorgeous that comports my mood to deplore the past by my loneliness.
我们曾用爱互相依靠 付出多少不用知道 We have ever snuggled up to each other with our truelove, the wholehearted payment we paid out for each other could be calculate no more.
想一个人有多好 就算只剩记忆可参考 How sweet for me to miss you, even rough only some fractional memories left in my mind.
被爱放逐到天涯海角 我的思念你不用都知道 Since I was exiled to the verge of the cosmos by our truelove, all my yearning for you had no chance to contact with you again.
直到有天你我年老 回忆随著白发风中闪耀 Some day when we become older, our mutual everlasting memories will glint in my mind from time to time, accompanying my white hair in the wind.
至少我清清楚楚知道 你若想起我会微笑 At least I do distinctly realize, that you will develop a soft smile on you face every time you recall me...
(<<不想让你知道>> 词:姚谦 曲:陈文华/周炳星 歌手：周惠)
The first time I heard of this song was in several months ago.It’s come from a personal-vocal-concert CD which a friend sent to me. She liked singing so much and much,and then,she recorded an CD, took herself as the leading role as a singer at the same time.She have sent this CD to me as a memorial of our casual encounter before she go abroad.
I still remembered that day, when I put that CD into my computer,soon enough, a silvery and comely voice popped up in my room,pierced my ears,pervaded my mind...I could infer that she’s so absorbed to contribute all her soul to this song when she was singing. Her emotion was so cordial and pure, and her individual melody was so magnetic and hypnotic. At that moment I felt myself like a weak captive who had no power to resist the intruder out.All my cells inside my body was overwhelmed by her consummate performance for a long time.I couldn’t help but recircling that touching rhythm,dot not want you to know, in my room for many times until the halcyon midnight came out...
In some emails she have told me many of her stories on her way to life.What I could conclude was, that at a critical crisscross intersection, she paced herself toward one direction without enough elaborative consideration, such like a stray bird who had resigned herself to her fate.
When she realized something dilemmatic beyond her expectation, things were totally out of her control.If she retreated herself back, of course she would hurt many people around her including her families and relatives, and so on.I knew for sure that she’s that sort of girl who would rather anguish herself than injure the others who cared about her in many ways.So she had no choice but to confront the doom ahead of her.It’s a little bitter out there but everyone must answer for the result what she created.The destiny is so fair for everybody to meet.
A few weeks ago I received her email again, but this time I snubbed it as a history.For the sake one,in my point of view, I deemed everyone must keep her unique loyalty to her another half after she initiating her marriage;Sake two,as a sensitive man who possesses enough supersensitive nerves,I knew than anyone else that human being’s emotional popple are something illogical and irrational for anyone to self-control well sometimes,I did not like to entwine myself with any a married girl, even a bit platonic relationship is not allowed.Because something unexpected will be too late to remedy when you finally get to know. And it’s so tough for people to handle the appropriate scale between the objective truth and the subjective wills, especially in emotional world, such like the gap of friendship versus love between two heterosexuals.Anyway, I preferred destroying the seed to seeing its bud and then eventually endanger each other’s peaceful life to a mess...
I was awfully absent-minded at that time, even somewhat lost my elementary consciousness and didn’t notice someone passing by me aside.All at a sudden, a gentle voice almost scared me stiff.
"Are you OK? You have a doughy face?"
Retrospecting from the resource of that voice, I raised up my head. It’s Cuckoo, one of my co-workers in my firm, who’s a girl in her middle twenties.She’s not much too pulchritudinous yet full of womanly characteristic that impregnated her with another womanlike attractions.
"I’m fine...just feel a little dizzy...because I have forgotten to have my breakfast this morning."I did not want her seeing my true color in my mind, then only naturally produced a white lie without any blushing complexion.
"Mind your stomach...there’s nothing precious other than a sound body in our lives.You'd better rest a bit."As she stepped out, I could hear a faintish sigh being escape from her lips.
To my great surprise, Cuckoo showed up again after a little while.She dramatically brought me two cakes and a glass of water.
"This’s one of my favorite brands of yolk-pie,I suppose you may like them..."She said.
I gave her a grateful beam and had to pretend wolfing that two cakes in front of her gaze.(Gosh! Did I have some other options by then, for God’s sake?)
"How about them?" She asked.
"Oh, it tasted not much too yummy..." I intentionally made a halt.
"I beg your pardon,sir ? " She gathered her lunar eyebrows a bit.
"Ok, I just want to say that your soft-hearted benefaction tasted much better delicious than anything else." This time I gave her a devil-like smile instead.
"Now you should know you owe me one big favor, and the higher interest rate will be add to it following the time elapses..." That she grinned was like a fox.
"Come on,you know my memory is an useless dotard, you better just forget it..."
"Alas, you loathful guy, what you said bedevil my heart,I would rather you get out of my life at once..." She waved her right hand up in the air as if a fierce attack would be follow soon after.
"Help! But before you shoot at me, let me finish my last respiration, please." I said expiringly.
"Ok, I assume that might be a wonderful epitaph..."
"I have perished that thought, and converted my idea...if somebody give me a drib of sweat, I will reward her with an entire Pacific Ocean.Will that be Ok for you ?"
"You pixy...it’s a much better optimal answer this time...you lucky, but I will keep my bullet for you next time..."
"It will be my great pleasure to accept it,I’d more like to wait and see..."
......
After having a relaxed conversation with my colleague,I was still badly down in mood for no reason.I elevated myself up from the chair, strolling to the destination of one of the windows, and looked at the outside world.It’s a drizzled day, yet in my mind there’s a moist weather as well.I knew it’s not only the raindrops flaunting in the wind, but also my invisible tears...
(The end)
