One of the most important greetings I remember in all my life is from my American teacher, as following, "Are you happy, Joan?" I could still remember that at that time, I often smiled back with a weak "yes", which in fact had betrayed me. In fact, I was by no means happy during the schooldays. I've actually been suffering from the possible obsessive-compulsive disorder all the time.
I was actually a very proud girl but diffident as well. I always aimed very high, which was often beyond my capacity. Therefore, once I encountered failure and frustration, my first reaction was to doubt, criticize and even hate myself, from which originated diffidence. As perfectionist, I was just too proud to accept any failure or defect, so I was always blue. I take all these symptoms as obsessive-compulsive disorder, which I find later should be faced with and conquered.
Thanks to the entirely new environment, working as a trainee journalist has brought a dramatic change to my life. I even forgot when it began to work, but real smile make its constant appearance on my face. Once I got up early in the morning, and washed my face in front of the mirror, I was so surprised to catch a smile, and got to know at once, I was really happy, as the famous saying goes that when you smile without anybody at present, you really mean it. I couldn't help wondering what on earth made me so happy, even at such an unconsciously moment, and of course I got the answer, that's my present internship.
"I really love such kind of internship!" I can clear hear the cry of my soul. With such kind of job, my life turns out to be occupied; I'm always busy with thinking, meeting different people, interviewing and writing. I have almost no extra time left for meaningless daydreaming as I used to. To me, there's only one aim ahead, namely, spare no strain to work out a good report. It's undoubtedly very challenging to put an eventful thing within limited words, and attract more readers' interest and concern as well. It's a severe test for your basic language skill, so as my individuality. The first lesson I got from the editors was that no matter what I write; always to keep in mind one thing, that your own individuality and viewpoints should be fully conveyed and embodied, which would make your report unique from others'. Of course, even such a simple words calls for continuing endeavors and great devotion, that's exactly what I'm undertaking now, resulting as a fulfilling and happy life.
It's noticeable that meeting different people and listening to their stories makes my inner eyes wide-opened. I get to know much more things than ever, and my way of thinking also got through a transformation. What struck me most was the first close contact with my previous teacher, whom I awed all the time. It may sound a little bit ridiculous that I dare not to talk with him when I was at college, because he seemed to pay little attention to me as other students with good school records. I was stressed indeed, and then said to myself, I would certainly rank the top in the coming examination to show him that I'm actually worth his attention. Afterwards, I achieved this goal, my score ranked the top of the whole grade, but he didn't teach us any more. You can imagine, at that very sarcastic moment, I was really depressed. Two days ago, I had an interview with him for something. At first, my voice even sounded a bit trembling, but later, the more he spoke, the more calm I turned out to be. In front of me, there sat a very diligent and knowledgeable gentleman, who was willing to share all his rich life experience and witty outlook on life with me. In the end, he mentioned that I was actually a very excellent student, he felt it a pity that we had never had a talk with me before. I was really moved and ashamed of course. If it were not for this interview, I would probably never know my respected teacher actually think highly of me, and wanted me to achieve more in the not distant future.
In addition, my guidance teacher in the newspaper now is a very considerate and competent man. I like going out for interview and talking with him. From him, I've learnt so much, not only how to work as a good journalist, but a happy being. Now I just do what he is actually doing now, that is, talk and think little, but do all the things at handy to the best. I just find with this attitude, my job turns out be to a success, and thus sense of achievement appearing and bringing me boundless happiness.
"Are you happy?" recently this greeting always comes to my mind over and over again, and my answer is still a smile, but very big and-------- with definitely yes!
