My little Angel
Daughter, My little angel, you laid your head comfortable on my chest and fall a sleep after I told you the fairy tale story “The fingerlike girl”. You like to listen the stories, though I don’t think you can understand all of them. But, you like it, right? Staring at your flowery face, I couldn’t help writing something for you.
My little angel, have you known? When I was informed that you exited in my body at the first moment, I prayed and looked forward to a daughter. Tender and pretty, cute and kind. My angel, you were befallen in this world on July, 2002. After hearing your first cry, Miss nurse told me with the smile “Congrats, a daughter with a head of black hair.” God is mercy. I know I have got want I wanted. I was eager to see what you’ll be like. You know, My baby, you were hold in nurse’s arm, your eyes sparkling, glanced at me and this brand new place. Didn’t you know I’m your mother? Didn’t you know we once connected tightly together almost 10 months? When nurse brought you leaved the surgery room to meet your father and grandparents, I knew from then on, my heart would go with you.
My little angel, you know, I remembered the first night after you were born very clearly. I felt terrible. I was nearly out of my breath. I must concentrate myself to hold the breath otherwise it would stop. Maybe lost too much blood in the surgery, or maybe there were too much anesthetic was used which caused my nerves numbly. I counted the second to stand it, as the hell. It was the toughest experience in my life. When the sun risen the next morning, shining rays crossed through the window, I felt a little better.
My little angel, It was Unlucky, you have the same tough experience like me. You always cried as somebody bothered you, and doctor checked your brain with the CT scan, found some blood points in your brain. You must accept the intravenous injection at the second day you came to this world. Forgive me, baby, mom couldn’t help you. Even now, I don’t think you should be treated that way. But at that time it was really not up to me. I felt helpless. Because of your weakly stomach and intestines, you always have indigestion until four- month-old. I don’t know what’s wrong. I wish you could get better soon. But doctor said this phenomenon is very common, it’s physiological diarrhoea. I knew that take superfluous antibiotic was not a good thing. It would bring some disadvantage works. So you didn’t receive injections anymore time expect those to prevent the children’s diseases. My little angel, you are growing everyday, every hour and every minute. I usually found something of you surprised me. My baby, remembered that day after bathed, I put you on bed and powder you on your body, when turned you over, you suddenly prop up your head with your elbows, raised your head high, opened your eyes wide and looked around. Ah, it’s the first time you looked the world this way. I could find that your eyes full of surprise and amaze. I rushed out the bedroom to take the camera, recorded this moment. Data on the corner of the picture noted that day obviously, “11.09.2002”It was the 50th day when you came to this world.
My little angel, you like smile very much, so your photos always show your bright faces. They brighten my life. My baby, at first, I checked if you up growth well or not according to the standard list of growing record. I found some of your aspect on the mental and body beyond it, also some behind it. Every child has his own growing rule. So I didn’t concern it very much now. My angel, you are the only one in this world.
My little angel, you must be test our patience so that we waited your first tooth grew out for a long time. That’s the May First Day, Your father noticed a white point on your teethridge. He told me about it, very exciting. Then your grandpa and grandma closed up to watch it, like to watch a new continent. But very regret, for their long-sighted eyes, it’s too difficult for them to watch it very clearly. Ah, Now we are waiting to welcome your twelfth tooth. When you laughed, showing two rows of white teeth, I would recall that happy day.
My little angel, though I knew this old saying, “The child of a man’s own is better than the another’s”. I still think you are the best and special one in the world. You are very quiet at night, thus I can have a good rest. You braved enough to learn how to walk and enjoy yourself in the course of practice. Therefore, you can walk very soon. Only 10 days pasted your first birthday. You crossed your room step by step without our help. You know, my baby, your grandma told me, your mother, I walk by herself until 18 months. Oh, you did a better job than me. :)
My little angel, now, you can walk and run freely around house and garden. It’s really a very exciting thing for you to explore this world by yourself. You always wanted to do things by yourself. I allowed you sit down beside the table and have meal with us, using your own spoon and bowl when you were one- year-old. A new experience for you, you started to learn how to eat, to learn this essential skill that how to put the food in your mouth. Ah, sometimes, you gave up using the spoon but your fingers. They’re more convenience, right? Ah, You make up your face with the soup and crumbs. I couldn’t hold my laugh when I recalled those scenes. You are a clever girl, my baby. Now you can use spoon very well. I’m proud of you. In other words, you are my teacher, too. Imparting me those natural characters we were lost in our period of growing.
My little angel, the Spring Festival is coming. A brand new world is waiting ahead of you. Now your task is learning your native language, ah, it’s not difficult for you. Mom is right here support you. Being your guide, pal or audience. Someday, you’ll read this article. You’ll find how I love you now and forever.
My little angel, when I wrote this article you were still sleeping, so sedateness and sweetness. I gazed at your face, didn’t want to leave for a second time. Have a good dream. Mom will always stay with you.
------ You all know that life may not be perfect, right? But no matter how complicated or challenging life might be for you, you are one of the blessed and lucky ones!
