I have just read a book called<College life 101>. My feeling is complicated, I am not able to express it in anyway. I feel the main charactor Allison is a great girl, although her past is miserable, and her future may still be, but that what she wants, she want to be in charge of her life, regardless everything that has bothered her. It is hard for even me to believe that there is any connection between the story and Zrfine's passage. I just want to share with all of you some of my thinking.
A lot of times it it not because we are not able to be successful, but we doubt the purpose of it, that is why life is boring. What is the final purpose? Only God knows if he is present.
I have set goals based on great purpose and remind myself of it as often as I can. Life goes still. With absolute peace, but yet not so much peace in mind.
I have been to a great church for half a year and heared from the best pastors from different parts of the world, as well as those recoganized successful people whom mostly have a deep believe in religion. I have tried to understand it, by my best. And also I do, at least most of the time, at least I think so.
I really can't find the evidences for the presence of God, but yet I do believe the universe does not just run so aimlessly, so endlessly, so uncomprehensively. So I set myself something like a religion to guide me. I have a God, but it is for my own, my personal, but I believe it is universal. I have heared a hym very often. "forever I will love you forever i will stand; nothing compares to the promises I have in you". When I hear it, I sing it then. I know it and I try my best to follow it, because I think it is all about life. Life with a soul, life with love to God, Life with promises to God."
I respect Nature because it is God who is preserving it and will keep it.Everything is preserved by God.
But what God is and what his rules are ? It is difficult to define.
