Sudden Tear
As I recall it, Leo is not the only one that I contact through net. But he is
the brightest one, despite the obvious work pressure.
I was checking my old emails in order to save the space. I deleted the ones of little importance, and saved those from bosom friends into my own computer. It
was then I ran across his old email. The name Leo was so familiar to me----I was born in the hottest month of August, and belong to "Leo" according to astrology.
My good memory did not fail me. I recalled how we met. Yup, it was still at hongen.com, when I was undergoing some emotioanl blues. He passed some warm encouragement to me, and that's how we met.
We just exchanged a few emails, and this connection faded with the passing of
time.
Anyhow he is someone who once treated me well. I decided to send a short email to him with daily greetings: Who knows, maybe he does not use the same address
now. After all, it was more than one years ago.
His reply came soon. And a correspondence we started again. At that time, I was preparing for my CATTI, and so eager to write in English.
Emails went back and forth between us. I'd say, he hasn't missed one of my writings. You know, I write often and post often, and have the habit of sending copies of these in public emails to friends in order to keep in touch and let them
know what I have been doing abd thinking.
Strange enough, he has the patience to write back each time, while some of my
friends got kind of tired of replying. ---:)I 'd say I understand pretty well.
And I do not have the slightest intention to blame them. the reason why I write,
as I have mentioned, is to amke myself known.
He started to send me his photoes, a pretty boy with great white teeth, and bright smiles. (Though in some of his later pictures, I found some trace of triedness) I have met many a person who asked for my phototes. The usual case is that
I won't reply, and instead of finding excuses, I simply distance the distance in between. Leo never asked for pictures of me.
And instead, he continued to write to me. And attached his cellphone number in one of those emails.
I kept silence and ignored them. And I kept writing to him in my occasional rests. I wanted it to be a pure net thing, and did not have the courage again to
allow someone walk into my realistic life.
Later,I was preparing for the proposal of my thesis upon graduation next year
. During this period, I encountered much more difficulties than expected. Leo was always there passing encouragement to me. After he knew it was only 2 weeks left and I did not have a slightest idea of what to write about(due to my supervisor's ingorance and my lack of related knowledge in my future field), he simply said: I am hoping to share your happiness in two weeks time. My eyes were wetted
at reading this simple words. And real hard I worked.
I did not really remember how I decided to send him all the pictures I had online and my cellphone number too.But I truly did so.
I did come through with flying colors. Leo sent me a short message saying that he would remember that day forever. I was bewildered, "Why?" I sent back. His
reply was simple enough:"You told me you have passed." On that moment, I saw my
heart raining, while I had a sun shinging at the same time. Then a rainbow I saw
through the tears.
Leo called me sometimes. And my mood was always lit up by him. We just talked
and I was a good listener most of the time. I love doing so. It feels so warm.
Then sudden tears came this afternoon. When I was exhausted but content after
shopping, and reported this to several of my friends, my dear parents included.
His call came in soon. This time he was talking about an old Chinese saying: shui3 dao4 qu2 cheng2, which means when enough effforts have been made, the expected result will come even without man-made force.
My heart was raining cats and dogs at hearing it. Still , being happy was the
main theme.
Would it be true? Would it be true?
At least we are both with a sincere heart, and open attitude towards it.
What joy!