it had been some rather difficult times for the past few weeks..physically, mentally, emotionally.
been rushing and working hard on projects to meet deadlines scheduled on this tuesday..
appetite went down..not to mention bio clock ..ppl around me keep trying to remind me that i have lost weight..why wont i realise? for all my outfit is growing
"fatter", as if i am shrinking..
left work for home around 9, 1st few times in weeks taht i dont stay back up till 11pm..thought i would go home and go to bed early..cant help "revising"the work process in mind..cant help feeling touched for the fact that you read, and re
read, and re read, checking every single details, grammar, figures i had in my financial report. only you would read my report and pay so much attention to tiny
bit of details. to be totally frank, even i dont do that.cant help feeling sad
and depress thinking that no one would be reading my report that carefully, checking my mistake for me once you leave by year end. let's be frank, it is not that i have not submitted my work or share my work with others in the office..they
hardly give any feedback, not to mention they would provide as detail a feedback
the way u gave me..
did we really manage to come back to origin after the fact that i have tendered?
given both aware of each other's departure? where both felt betrayed? i dont know. i cant say i dont care..but.. so what we never get back to that stage? so what if we do? what difference would it make??
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met you online. u said coke is available in hotel fridge. found out from you that even your supervisor knew that i collect coke. was curious of how he get to know it. suspect that you told him. you said "i would do somethings i do it in silence,like coke collection", made me feel like getting a tight slap on the face.
i admitted that i had been a bit high profile lately. cant help feeling shame where a country rep told me over email "help me and i will buy you coke". i felt
as if i have given out the message to all country reps that so long as they buy
me coke, i will do anything they want. we argued. you said, it depends on both parties'attitude. if ppl were to express their gratitude, they will buy even if they dont know your preference. if ppl wanna commit bribery, they would no matter
what you like, whether they know your preference or not, they would find a way.
i defended that we are discussing about different issues here. to you, ppl are
giving coke because they appreciate your help. to me, my greatest fear is, it is
used as a bribery, not an appreciation. and this is the last thing i want it to
happen. and it is already happening now if u take things more seriously because
the sender of the email said :"help me AND i will buy you coke" .
cant help blaming myself for being so careless to let out my preference. should
have kept personal things remain personal and never mingle with work stuff. cant
stop blaming myself that i should have been more careful and this could be a mistake that i should have avoided.
i thought i liked you..but ..most of the times, things that you said, things that you do..just wounded me more than u could ever imagine. i thought we share the
same wavelength..but apparently we dont..you asked me to get a life and if i wanna feel depress over it no one could help me..it is easy for you to say, it is
always like offer to hug someone after slapping them..i dont need that kind of treatment, thank you very much.
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saw u on friendster..realise u left a friend a testimonial shortly after i did..
same way of phrasing a sentence. the number of friends on your friendster list grew humungously.. the girl that had a crush on you back then is now on your list
..you hated her..and you left a testimonial for the girl you had a crush on before we started. you swear that if you ever contact her again you'd be a turtle man. i thought u'd never turn back.. ultimately, you became that turtle man. you had a crush on her but we had a relationship..that made me deserve what i get from you today?
this is hillarious!! （and rediculous).
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需要去走走。。否则很快会发疯。还是已经疯了？
