Dear mary.,
I am your faithful reader Mary, i started to read posts here and be interested in this forum two months ago and most of your posts which you wrote during these two months recently i read wholeheartedly. All of them are so meaningful and interesting enough to give me motivation to learn english more harder. Now i couldn't control myself anymore to write a post here as well and want your sincere help and advice because you are a mentor in learning english and my life in my heart. I am sad for around one week already for my affection. It's really a little complicated to describe the thing happened to me but i will try to make it clear and easy to understand. I always thought I was a strong person before i met one boy(who is a foreigner) who made me know clearly that I am a fragile girl. The day we met was almost 4 years ago. I know that net love is not that believable to most of the friends but it really happened to me in such deep way. We met each other on icq and the reason for me to use icq at that time was for learning improving my english but destiny arranged us to meet and gave me chance to konw what is true love. At first we just thought we got along with each other so well and afterwards he called me "old sister" and I called him "yonger bro" because I am a little older than him. He was still studying in university at that time so after met for one month he was busy with preparing for the exams and we couldn't meet each other for his study and my work. When I almost forgot this " younger bro" suddenly one day we met on icq again accidently for such a conincidence. Since then we treasured time to meet each other and we could erupt everything we want no matter whether it's happy or sad good or bad as good friends. We kept our relationship so well and it developed little by little naturally even without us knowing. So after we kept our relationship for almost 2 years we found the feeling we had for each other is not only the normal friends or good friend but also love. It's accumulated as time goes by before both of us realised. I really treasure our love and sepecial feeling for one another so deeply because it really never happened to me and I also know it's not easy happen to everyone that's why true love is such precious. Then we started to plan for meeting each other in person one day and it happened on the middle of last November just after he graduated. Before he came to meet me we made everything so clear because we know there must would be so many obstacles for us to be with each other and another most important thing is that we couldn't be sure that whether we fit with each other really that well as we were online so he said let's take each other as normal friends first when he came and I agreed although my heart was ache a little but i really agreed with him from my heart. At last he came to me and we found that we could get along with each other so well even better than we expected before he reached me. We completely enjoyed one month together in person because his tourist visa only allowed him to stay for one month. I also resigned my job for catching time to be with him but I was lucky enough that I found another job just before he left. We both cried so much those days just before he would leave and we know we really love each other so much and that's the truth we realise that's not just the feeling we have on the net but it's real love. So after he went back to his controy we continued to keep contact show how much we miss each other love each other over the net and he said he would come to me again.Now he is hunting job and i know it puts so much pressure on him for finding job and it also makes him frustrated for not to be with each other in person. So sometimes he complains that he really get tired of net for only talk to me through net but not in person so I can understand and I know it's hard for us to work for our future but I think if we really love each other we can conquer everything. I know he is under more pressure than me although we are fine now but I am really afraid that one day he would decide to give it up. I can be sure of myself but I can't be sure of him and I also really don't know how about our future. My heart always ache so much these days when I think of it. So Mary,and all friends here I really want your advice and tell me what is the best way for me to do now.
Forgive my messy typing and wait for your reply ASAP!
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