Never know that side of myself until i meet her.
It was a saturday. counsin had been telling again and again to go and meet her.I's ..honestly, lazy..despite hearing how cute she is, how adorable..i just can defeat the thought of wanting to stay home lazing around knowingthat i had been lacking 8 hours of sleep accumulating from the entire week.
cousin in law called. mum was so eager wanting me to meet her.(dont u hateppl asking u out on weekend when u are already exhausted from work during weekdays?)was so lazy that..i didnt reject cousin in law straight on the face but told her that if i were to visit her, i would give her a call. i know too well,deep down in my heart, that means chances of me visiting her is slim to none.cant say no to mummy request and ended up driving to her place at around 2pm in the afternoon.(unwillingly :P)
cousin in law said that she is still having her afternoon nap when we arrived but promised that she'd be awake in no time. mummy and i ended up sitting down flipping through her photo albums...finally, heard some sound from upstairs...and there she comes..
a 20months old baby girl, with the zombie look everyone has on their face when they first got up..she glanced around, hiding herself and her little facebehind her mummy. my mother, as usual, tried talking to her, cheering her up,wanting to have fun with her. while for me, i just sit there and keep flippingthrough the remaining stack of photos..she is, occasionally curious, and take a glimpse of those photos in my hands, and mumble something that mean dad(who is my cousin brother).
i wasnt eager in pleasing her like every one elses do..i was just being myself. at last, around 1/2 an hour before we leave, mum and auntie sort of ask me to finish the sushi they've served earlier.
i took the chopstick, almost putting the sushi in my mouth, this little girlstare at me.., i tempted her, "want a bite"? she looked at me , and looked away shyly.
looking at her mummy, seeming to get approval to taste the sushi i am holding. cousin in law trying to persuade her not to eat, but she just cant seem to take her little cuttie eyes off my chopstick. then i offered, just 1 mouthful? she nodded, and came nearer.
Slowly bit by bit, she finished the entire serve of sushi. she has this satisfied look on her little face that one can never forget, glancing at the plate wishing for more perhaps?
when waving good bye at her, her mummy encouraged her to give me a peck on the face or at least say good bye. seeing how shy she is when she was with my mother, i didnt think she has the courage to come over. but instead, this little girl gave me a hug, and a peck..
when i was about to leave, i ask her if i could hug her, she raised out her little hands .. :) i hugged her, carried her out from the house, pretending to bring her away from her mother...and telling her to waive goodbye to mummy.she in deed does. and she wasnt afraid at all that i am bringing her away from her mummy(as compared to what cousin in law told us that she is normally shy and wont leave her mummy out of sight at all, not to mention carrying her away from the house).she is not the type of baby that has chubby face chubby arms, big eyes nor chubby pinky cheek that one cant resistwanting to play with her. but somehow somewhere, she has got her own charm that, you just cant help loving her.
honestly speaking, i have never seen her. but cousin informed me of her arrival back in year 2002 june 17 when she was borned.
it is amazing the way we are bonded, the way she felt so secure and safe in my arms, and somehow, hugging her, seeing her, patting her, felt as if i am, once again, with my beloved cousin brother, as if he is there, right infront of me.
despite the fact that i would never know when i am going to see her again...but one thing for sure, i'd love to see her again.may god bless that she grow up happily, healthily...be good be smart. i didnt know, i could love a kid so much until i met her.
i used to be afraid of children crying, and i try keeping myself at least 6 feet away from all children. i never knew i could be so patient with children when i have to feed them. i thought i would never have the patience to finish feeding them.
be it the reason she is borned in Australia, the place, which i consider my home country as well apart from where i was borned, or be it she is cousin's daughter, be it she was borned when i was abroad in australia, knowing she is just in another state... but, bizarely, just cant help loving her.
