HOw do you find urself adapting to reverse culture shock?Part 4: Farewell ICM
It is the 2nd last day for ICM to be in our office today.The "F" i have written a letter to, in part 2 of this very same series of article.
I knew he will only be in our office for 2 weeks, and i can recall clearly how stress up i got even the nite before he reported to our office, and how i was unable to sleep those nites when he was sitting next to me in our office when my collegue is absent. I dont deny that, i wish, so much that he would be leaving the office soon as i am so so so so so stress over his existence innitially.I can recall my heart pounding when he was sitting next to me, despite doing his own work on his desk, he occasionally came over to check on my progress and be at my back quietly observing me and to endsure the programme he wrote/designed/built up for me is working perfectly. I was terrified by the idea of him commenting on me " You are a pretty impatient person as u keep clicking around on Excel when it freezes". Can he be more observant? I felt as if i am under a 24 hours surveillance camera, as if he is assessing me as long as he is sitting next to me.
I walked pass by the room he stationed in today minutes before i left work. I paused, but moved on. Half way walking towards the lift, i turned back, thinking this might be the only opportunity i can talk to him alone, since he is so busy running around the business.
I walked back into the office, and walked into the room he is stationed at. He looked at me, puzzled, wondered if i have another suggestion yet to bring up to him with regards to the programme he designed. I quickly explained that,
"No No No, there's nothing wrong with the programme. You might recieved an email later..but i thought i wanna say this to you personally."
he still looked lost.
"I just wanna say, thank you, for ur effort to build up the programme from scratch, u might not how much this means to me, it is a very comprehensive concept and thought that you have, and a programmed that u designed, it made my life so much easier, and the patience u have to discuss it with me, and the tolerance level u have when i made suggestion to you, and the way u edit it (i saw some of the log files, which, not only he is working on the programme on weekend, he work till 2am in the morning to make the adjustment). I really understand the pain to play around all these programmes thingy... I wish you good luck with your future endeavour and ur upcoming wedding".
he looked shy the way i praised him.he said it is really sweet of me to thank him that way as there's really no reason i should be saying thankyou.
Despite he only spend a fairly short time in the office...he is, the person, apart from my non-immediate supervisor, who could give me best guidance and advice on how i should proceed onwards with my work. Despite most colleagues and even my supervisor feel pressurised by his existence, despite him being around i get really really pressurised...but...i like him...i like the way he has a very comprehensive and thoughtful mind...i like the way he has a solution for whatever problem that i might encounteer...i like the way he has got very good sense of humour..i wish he could be stationed in our region office forever. but i guess not, coz that would only be a demotion to him.
i double confirmed his departure schedule with him..and he mentioned that tomorrow (thursday) would be his last day in the office, and asking him when he would be leaving this region, he said first thing in the morning on friday.
i heard my heart cracking.. i even forget to wish him have a safe journey...and left work.. i can feel my heart drowning when i was driving back from work...it was so clear that, this is the type of supervisor i wanna work for..this is the type of supervisor i wish i will be reporting to..
I really really do, lookforward to seeing him in our region office again but i dont quite think that is possible, given that he would be flying around entire asia pacific, and with his upcoming wedding, i believe his schedule would be really tight.
I am not sure if it is because of him, but my supervisor and the department director came to me today saying that they are considering upgrading my position, and let me take up more work load if i am ready to. "base on some of the feedback from F", my supervisor said. I know it could be partly my effort, but i deeply deeply appreaciate the way F gave those feedback to my supervisor, the effort he input, the patience he has and the way he put up with me.
Where on earth can i find another supervisor like him? I enjoyed working with him and i really do. I wonder if that's a good thiing or a bad thing about an MNC, in which, when u just thought u have established a stable relationship/friendship/workship with ur colleague/supervisor, they are being re-locate to another place. 缘到尽处缘飘散. Just like when studying abroad, after final exam, after spending some time with classmates and getting familiar with them, and hang out with them, it is graduation ceremony time and u all have to go home.
再会.心碎.
